[Continued from yesterday]
FROM A SITE VISITOR: Hi Floyd, Angie here. I read your blogs from time to time and although I have some difficulty understanding the concepts you speak of, I am definitely interested in some of the ideas. The thing is, I have been thinking about the self/Self for a while now and asking a lot of questions. For the last few days, I have had some images running through my mind. The first includes the words \"look\" and \"see\", and the second is only a question...\"What do I ask now?\" I usually find that the answers come, but I\'ve walked into the hallway of a building full of closed doors. I think sometimes I lose my mind in the best way, but now...she\'s back in gear. Any insights? THank you for taking the time to read this. Angie
F.: So, observe the mind-personality trap: the assumption of all personas is inspired by the thinking “mind,” and the thinking “mind” is occupied with the fears and desires of assumed personas. That circular dilemma creates a deadlock…a closed system…an inescapable trap. Only if the “mind” and assumed personas are discarded can peace happen as the dilemma ends. So, in light of the understanding that the “in gear mind” generates belief in personas and that belief in personas gears up the "mind," you might now understand the cycle in which you're trapped: there is peace for a period when it seems you've lost the hold of the "mind," but then "she's back in gear" and it is peace that is lost. For you to be free, it is necessary to find who the “she” is. (In fact, a thorough self-inventory will reveal that there are many “she’s,” each with “her” own agenda and each with “her” own imaginary fears and unmet desires and, therefore, all of the manifold annoyances experienced by all of those "she's.")
Begin by finding just one of those assumed identities. To find the most recent “she” (false identity) that surfaced, find the last time you felt hurt, threatened, interfered with, or angry. Then ask, “What ego-state felt as if it were being attacked or disrespected?” Was "Super Employee" not being shown proper respect? Or was “Super Employer” not receiving the respect it felt entitled to? Was “Super Wife” or "Super Lover" angry? Was some other “Special Person” cut off in traffic or did some “Super Person” have a parking space stolen? Was the opinion expressed by “Super Smart Person” questioned by someone who seemed inferior?
Find the WHO that was gearing up the “mind” and inspiring the thinking that disrupted the peace. What was the thought about that "geared up" the "mind," really? Did some slight occur? Was there some offense? Was some resentment triggered? Was a fear inspired? Was some desire not being met? Probe to find out what ego-state thought that it was being hurt, threatened, interfered with, or angry and you will find a persona that should be discarded as an identity. Why? It has just been shown that it was some "offended" persona that “geared up” the “mind” and robbed you of peace. Since no persona is real, is it now obvious why all disharmony is rooted in illusion...in the illusion that assumed identities are real and can be interfered with?
F.: So, observe the mind-personality trap: the assumption of all personas is inspired by the thinking “mind,” and the thinking “mind” is occupied with the fears and desires of assumed personas. That circular dilemma creates a deadlock…a closed system…an inescapable trap. Only if the “mind” and assumed personas are discarded can peace happen as the dilemma ends. So, in light of the understanding that the “in gear mind” generates belief in personas and that belief in personas gears up the "mind," you might now understand the cycle in which you're trapped: there is peace for a period when it seems you've lost the hold of the "mind," but then "she's back in gear" and it is peace that is lost. For you to be free, it is necessary to find who the “she” is. (In fact, a thorough self-inventory will reveal that there are many “she’s,” each with “her” own agenda and each with “her” own imaginary fears and unmet desires and, therefore, all of the manifold annoyances experienced by all of those "she's.")
Begin by finding just one of those assumed identities. To find the most recent “she” (false identity) that surfaced, find the last time you felt hurt, threatened, interfered with, or angry. Then ask, “What ego-state felt as if it were being attacked or disrespected?” Was "Super Employee" not being shown proper respect? Or was “Super Employer” not receiving the respect it felt entitled to? Was “Super Wife” or "Super Lover" angry? Was some other “Special Person” cut off in traffic or did some “Super Person” have a parking space stolen? Was the opinion expressed by “Super Smart Person” questioned by someone who seemed inferior?
Find the WHO that was gearing up the “mind” and inspiring the thinking that disrupted the peace. What was the thought about that "geared up" the "mind," really? Did some slight occur? Was there some offense? Was some resentment triggered? Was a fear inspired? Was some desire not being met? Probe to find out what ego-state thought that it was being hurt, threatened, interfered with, or angry and you will find a persona that should be discarded as an identity. Why? It has just been shown that it was some "offended" persona that “geared up” the “mind” and robbed you of peace. Since no persona is real, is it now obvious why all disharmony is rooted in illusion...in the illusion that assumed identities are real and can be interfered with?
Then, take out pen and paper and list every role that you have played in your life, starting with the earliest roles that were duality-based, such as: “The Good Little Girl”; “The Bad Little Girl”; “The Good Little Student”; “The Bad Little Student”; “The Good Daughter”; and “The Bad Daughter.” Then, expand the list to include “The Acceptable Girlfriend”; “The Unacceptable Girlfriend”; “The Good Wife”; “The Bad Wife”; “The Good Mother”; “The Bad Mother”; or "The Good Religious/Spiritual Person" vs. "The Not Always Good Religious/Spiritual Person." If one is honest, the list can grow to a considerable length.
Next, you report that lately you have been focusing on “look” and "see." Fine. Use those. LOOK at all those roles and SEE that there are multiple areas where each of them interrupts your peace (self-concept, self-esteem, image, finances, relations, sex relations, etc.) Next, SEE that each of those affected areas has a voice. LOOK at how those voices are manifesting as thoughts in your geared up “mind.” SEE why your “mind,” when it “gears back up,” sounds like the chatter of a thousand monkeys. SEE why there is no such thing as "peace of mind."
Next, you report that lately you have been focusing on “look” and "see." Fine. Use those. LOOK at all those roles and SEE that there are multiple areas where each of them interrupts your peace (self-concept, self-esteem, image, finances, relations, sex relations, etc.) Next, SEE that each of those affected areas has a voice. LOOK at how those voices are manifesting as thoughts in your geared up “mind.” SEE why your “mind,” when it “gears back up,” sounds like the chatter of a thousand monkeys. SEE why there is no such thing as "peace of mind."
LOOK at the ways in which thoughts generate assumed personality/personalities and how personality/personalities trigger thoughts. SEE the circular trap. SEE that the assumed identities/personas are lies; then, it should be obvious why, if you would be free, you must SEE the truth. Take the seven-step "journey" and you will understand that (a) seeing the entire truth, (b) Realizing Fully, (c) being in touch with Reality, and (d) being out of touch with false personas and the fictitious “mind” all amount to only one (simultaneous) happening.
The “journey” to Realization, therefore, is a “journey” of moving away from the lies of past cultures, away from the lies of your current culture, and toward the truth. The contaminated consciousness has an astonishing degree of tolerance for lies and distortions; the pure consciousness has no capacity at all to suffer any nonsense. Are you ready for the "journey"? Only if you are really tired of being trapped in cycles. Only if you are really tired of the fluctuations which you referenced. Only is you are really tired of all of the nonsense of the imaginary "world." Please enter the silence of contemplation. [To be continued]
