Today's Considerations
[Continued from yesterday]:
Some have asked how I ended up in a session with Mark and
how I felt after the session. I ended up in the session because I was hired by
the owner of the center who was trying to treat Mark’s addiction but who
understood that drug and alcohol abuse have nothing to do with drugs and
alcohol but have everything to do with a plethora of factors which require a holistic
treatment plan. The owner understood that the role which personality plays in subconsciously determining and controlling a person's thoughts and words and actions is one part of a holistic treatment plan.
The owner also understood that Mark was like everyone else who came to
the center and that none of them have, say, a drinking problem but that all of them have a
host of thinking problems.
(Most who enter treatment are told that on day one
but then nothing is done to address the actual thinking problems because groups
and centers for the most part are all being run by untrained, non-professionals
who haven’t a clue about treating the mental problems of those who come their
way. Instead, their approach is like the one Maharaj tried and abandoned because he saw
it did not work, the approach which says, “Sure you have mental problems and sure you're
insane, but if you become spiritual, God will heal all that.” And their evidence
is? A few who stop drinking but all of whom remain as insane as ever without having a clue
that such is their circumstance.)
So why was I hired to conduct that session? The owner knew that I had been working with
people and couples and companies, administering a personality inventory test, completing
an analysis of the results, and then conducting sessions to share the results
and to discuss the ways that each personality type drives thoughts and words
and actions.
The owner understood that the unconscious agendas of assigned and assumed personalities determine all thoughts and
words and actions. Because I had told him when he hired me years earlier to work
with all of his staff members on their “personality issues,” the owner knew what Maharaj had said about the Ultimate Sickness, that it is not only rooted in - but it also perpetuates - “ignorance, stupidity and insanity.”
He also knew and understood, because I had told him earlier, that Maharaj
said that "the cause of all is all” and that the “ignorant and stupid and insane”
actions which can be observed every day all around the globe are the result of
a long line of persons being driven by “ignorance and stupidity and insanity.”
The owner also understood, because I had shared it with him in the past, that Maharaj
could have added to his list a fourth key factor which is at play in all of the
global instances of separating and hating and fighting and killing and killing
in the name of a God, namely, the oh-so-prevalent sickness of assholism which develops
after the masses are exposed to generations of ignorant and stupid and insane programming
and conditioning and domestication and acculturation and indoctrination and brainwashing.
To the question of how I felt after the session:
On the
drive home, the initial feeling which had to be processed was disgust. I
had sat with a man who had terrorized a wife (who, like all programmed and conditioned
humans, was also very sick); who had traumatized his young daughters in a way
that will affect them for their entire existence; and who had murdered his estranged
wife in front of those children. Talk about self-absorption. Talk about concerned
only with self. So, yes, disgust.
Then I saw how that is magnified thousands of
times a day all over the globe, to lesser or greater degrees. I flashed back to
how many of the five thousand teens I had worked with over the years were kind
and how many were mean and how many had been traumatized by parents who were
self-absorbed, negligent, narcissistic, unavailable, and who have passed along their
own attachment disorders to another generation.
I saw how many parents were passing on a sense of inferiority
to some of their children and how many more were passing down a sense of superiority
to their children. I saw that many might not be overtly teaching hatred and racism
and separation and judgmentalism and duality to their children but who were certainly
involved in an act of omission by not un-teaching the hatred and racism and separation
and judgmentalism and duality learned by their children who had been taught all of that
via acculturation. And I saw the effects of what is being passed down as
those who had been bullied at home then came to school and bullied.
So next, I felt drained, sad, cheerless, sorrowful,
and heart-broken about humanity in general because of the widespread misery which
they are contributing to and suffering from. [And even the feeling of such feelings has
drawn criticism from some, those being the ones who do not understand that the so-called
"Realized" all feel but do not emote. Maharaj was asked if he really even cared
about the seekers who came his way. His reply: “More than you will ever know.”
So the case is here. Most do not understand "empathy" because it is being wiped out on
a global basis, another of the consequences of the Ultimate Sickness.]
But after I processed all of those feelings, I felt moved. I felt motivated more than ever to
continue to share the non-dual message regarding the unicity and Real Love and the freedom and peace
which can only come if one is relieved of the effects
of generations of "ignorant and stupid and insane" programming and conditioning
and domestication and acculturation and indoctrination and brainwashing which
always lead to “ignorant and stupid and insane” actions.
Shortly after reaching home, my phone rang with a call coming
in from a man who had attended a retreat two months earlier. His wife, he informed
me, had just told him that she was leaving him. He described how he watched as she drove away
with his children. He said that he was trying to apply all that we had discussed
to what he was feeling but that he was not doing well at all in that effort:
"On one hand, I want to jump in the car and race after them and fight to keep my family together; on the other hand, I feel paralyzed and can't move. I'm overwhelmed with all sorts of feelings, or, more likely - as you'd say - emotions. Talk to me."
Having processed on the drive home from the center all of
the feelings which had been generated during a session which I had been obliged to conduct
because of a contractual agreement I had with the center where the man had been
for a time (a session of a type which I would no longer conduct nowadays, job
or no job) I was prepared to move on, so I said to the caller:
“I understand. Let me tell you about two encounters I had
with two females and see if there might be something in the tale for you to
understand and apply:
“I had spent the night in an Arizona lodge and was preparing
to leave for two weeks of hiking in the nearby forest. I had been warned that
bears were moving about with their cubs that time of year and could be quite
dangerous. I headed out for the trailhead and . . . . "
To be continued.
Please enter the silence of contemplation.
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