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FROM A SITE VISITOR: How’s this for duality: there are times I read your blog and feel great inside. Then there are times I read your blog and feel horrible inside. I know what you’ll say, and I know you are really pointing us toward the truth, yet there is a struggle. I read a friend’s copy of From the I to the Absolute and finally “got” a lot of it, but not all.That’s why sometimes it seems so clear that there is no “Paul,” but after 30+ years of being trained to think in “mass-think” and talk by using the “mass-speak” language, I find that on occasion I want to help others. I want to have a purpose. I want to be loved. I want to love. Then I shift, and it is all that fluctuating that I want to stop. Comments? Paul
F.: Hello Paul. Thank you for the e-mail. You have transitioned beyond the wet charcoal stage, you have sailed to some degree beyond the dry charcoal stage, and you are nearing the gunpowder stage.
The elements for understanding have almost all come together for you, so the suggestion is that you merely keep dancing the dance, taking this all as entertainment, and focusing on key pointers in the silence; then, the final understanding will likely explode into awareness.
No comment will be offered on the duality you mention—not necessary at all, since You know. As for “reading a friend’s copy” of the book, never, ever do that. Buy your own copy. [Humor.]
As for those things that you occasionally want, how about this: how about if helping happens in a relative sense without the presence of “The Helper”? How about if purposefulness happens in a relative sense without any “Person with Purpose?” How about if You love without the presence of any ego-state called “The Lover” (the case that happens when the True Self engages in Pure Witnessing)?
As for “being loved,” You Are, by every speck of consciousness that knows the Oneness. Will “Paul” meet some “one” who can dance the relative dance with him someday? Maybe. Maybe not.
Why not also allow what happens in that regard, or what does not happen in that regard, to be witnessed from a position of neutrality, and thus freedom? Then only will the “shifting” you mentioned come to an end. Again, thank you for the e-mail. Please enter in the silence of contemplation.
